When I wrote the Game, I was inspired by “The Stable Song“. I’d play it over and over because it gave me a feeling of longing and regrets.  

I always wanted to write a gay love story that was about average , ordinary guys who happen to be gay, instead of the stereotypical flamboyant clowns, drag queens, circuit boys or sex craved perverts that Hollywood seems to portray homosexuals in the films. The Game is my fantasy of running away with the man you love despite the condemnation one might encounter from society.

Also around the time I wrote this chapter, I had a profound dream that changed my spiritual beliefs to the core. Up until this point, I had considered myself an atheist. I didn’t believe that anything possessed a soul. I assumed we were more like machines that simply turn off.

In the dream, I was in a room with perhaps 30 or more long time friends. We were discussing how sexual fetishes could be used to pay off Karmic debts. We were planning a group reincarnation. Suddenly, my alarm went off. I was still dreaming as I was waking. The others in the group heard my alarm as well and told me to look up Karmic debt, and to remember that karma is the reason that we want to reincarnate over and over again. From that day on, I believe in reincarnation, and that we meet again. 

Perhaps it isn’t true at all and that we all just cease to exist, but it sure is a comforting idea to think that it might happen.